Dear Zoe,

Never have I experienced such boredom.  Even over the summer I had more to do than this!  Okay, so it's fall break.  And everyone went home, except of course for me.  These are the moments when I regret going to school so frick'n far away from home.  Also that I don't have a car yet.  UGH!  What have I done to deserve this?  Next summer better kick mighty damn ass to make up for the last.  I better make BIG bucks, and my job better be top fuck'n notch! 

Do you know what happened to me the other day?  Well of course you don't, but you're going to.  I worked so fucking hard on this pot I was making for my culture studio class, and it BROKE!  It fucking BROKE!  I almost cried.  I was going to give that thing to my mom for Christmas.  Although it didn't  look that great...it was still a big loss.  This thing was massive.  And now it lives in bits and pieces in a grocery bag sitting on my bedroom floor.  So, today I had to go to the ceramics room to make something new.  I was going to email my professor and ask him what I should do, but then I thought, "yo, he's never gonna believe that my pot broke."  So I just started a new one today that looks MUCH better, and I'll tell him about my broken pot on Thursday.  That way at least I have something in my hands to replace the broken pot! 

Mom went to South Carolina for the past week.  David recommended her for a job at Marriot.  I guess she pretty much has it in the bag, but she is resistant to go because her heart is in Syracuse.  But I've talked to her about this several times.  She can always take the job in SC, and in a few years or so move back to Syracuse.  I mean the ideal situation is for her to get a job there, but you don't always get what you want, do you?  I certainly know that from experience!

Alright, I should probably get started on some homework now.  I've worked a little bit today, but I really need to get goin' cuz a lot is due next week!  I have a test on Wednesday and 4 one page essays due Thursday.  Already have one of those done, but still, that's three pages of unfinished work!  Okay, okay...I'm going! 

Chao.

Dear Zoe,

Hello!  What's up?  Not much here.  This week went by really fast.  Which is good, because last week went by really f'n slow.  Can you believe we've gone through FIVE weeks so far?  I mean, damn...five weeks!  It still seems like it has only been around three or so. 

I have this problem  It seems like lately I have been emotionless.  No matter what happens to me, I can't feel a thing.  I mean, I get happy about a good grade on a test, or I'm pissed because I have to get up for morning class, but inside I'm just this empty....thing.  I don't know what it is.  Nothing too dramatic has happened to me.  I feel different too.  Like I'm distanced from everything.  I feel a thousand miles away from everyone when they are less than a foot away from me.  It's wierd.  I don't know what the fuck is going on!   

Do you know what really pisses me off?  The fact that I have to go to a god damn counsellour just for seeing Dr.Shapiro!  Apparently it's a new policy at the councling center this year.  Ugh!  I don't need to see a damn counselour!  I just need someone to prescribe me my damn anti-depressants so I can function correctly in society.  Is that too much  to ask for?  Apparently so!  So now I have to go and talk to this woman every week about stuff that doesn't even matter.  It's f'n pointless!    Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh!

Alright I'm gonna go.  I need a god damn ciggarette. 

Chao.

I deeply apologize for all of the grammatical errors in my last entry.  I read it and was like...woah...how did I not miss that?  Anyways, I was partially drunk when I wrote it so that's probably why.  Any future sober entry's shall be grammer error free!

Dear Zoe,

Hi!  Today is Saturday.  I was planning on doing some homework, but guess what!  That never happened.  Instead I watched the last half of Happy Gilmore and then went to Chambersburg with Kyle.  We went to Subway for lunch(YUM) and then the pet store.  The puppies there are soooo cute!  We got to hold an American Bulldog Heeler mix, cockapoo, and two cute little pugs!  Kyle thinks they look like aliens(pugs), but I think they are irrestibly cute.  The bulldogs were so adorable!  I want one sooooo bad.  But pets aren't allowed in college park and I have no fuck'n money for a dog.  I have no money for anything... 

OMG  I just drank the most wonderful alcoholic beverage on the planet.  Dr.Pepper and Bacardi Superior!  Yeah buddy you can't even taste the rum in the drink, it's soooo good!  I chugged it down and now on to the second bottle!  I'm gonna be all liquored up before Paige and Aria even get here.  hehehe  We got a 24 pack of Mike's Hard Lemonade.  Mmmm!  I can't wait!  It's like last weekend all over again.  Fuck yeah.  Weekends here are like alcoholics anonymous only we're not anonymous and instead of talking about our addictions we drink them away!  hahahahaha

Okay.  I've held this in waaaay too long.  I need to bitch.  You know what really pisses me off?  Preppy ass students who drive really expensive cars that their mommies and daddies bought for them.  Seriously, the other day  Mike and I were in the storage parking lot and we saw FOUR Mustangs!  It should be a rule that until you're at least a college graduate, or at that age, you have to drive a shitty ass car.  Mike has a VW Golf, Kyle has a Saturn, I might be having a LeSabre...we are normal!  Are parents are rich as fuck and hand everything over to us.  Kids like that should die.  BURN IN HELL! Ugh.  Just one day I'd like to see a Mustang in the college park parking lot with a boot on its wheel.  Fuck yeah.  That'd fuck'n rock.  Prissy ass mother fucker can't drive his precious baby to the next block!  Oh no!  What is he going to do?!?!?!  haha  I'm such a bitch.  But seriously everyone, aren't I right?  Am I not fuck'n RIGHT?!

I don't usually talk about current events on here, but something very tradgic is going on in America, and I feel like I should give it at least a paragraph of my time.  I have mixed feelings about the hurricanes Katrina and Rita.  Before Rita came along I felt really bad for all the people who lost their homes and belongings in New Orleans and was totally bummed that such a great city was flooded!  But now I feel it quite odd, and almost amusing, that Rita is heading straight for the city that all the refugees from New Orleans went.  I mean, is this a sign from God or something?  Personally, I think we're witnessing first hand the end of the world.  I grew up in a very religous household, and believe it or not, I was once a die hard Jesus freak.  Look at me now...  hehe Anyways, I did some studying of the last chapter of the bible, most of you know it by the book of Revelation.  It's a creepy ass book, and quite confusing if you don't have someone explain it to you as you read, but from what I remember of it, at the end of the world a war is supposed to break out and then seven world catastrophes are supposed to occur.  And then Jesus will come down and take all the believers up to heaven and the rest of us will live on earth in perish.  So...think about it!  Aren't we in war right now?  And haven't a lot of bad things happened lately?  More than usual?  Hmm...let's see...9/11, the tsunami, hurricane Katrina and Rita, the London attacks...what else do we need?  Okay so maybe my philosophy is a little far fetched but think about it people.  It's fucking 2005.  Anything can happen.

I am starting to create a photobucket account.  Ya'll should check it out.  I don't have the url for it yet, but when I do figure that shit out(I'm dumb as fuck, yes I know) I'll post it up here.  I'll actually probably put is as my website.  I'm not done with it, still A LOT more pics to upload and sort through, but you can look at what's there now!  I'm having a lot of fun doing and I hope all you losers like it.  I love looking at pictures, so I figured I'd let other people enjoy the same thing with my own.  hehehe 

Okay.  I have to pee and I have company on their way.  Time to get druuuuunik!  Woo Hoo!  heheheh   

Chao.